I'm Nobody
Matt is back from LA today and I am looking forward to seeing him. This morning, I wake up early to meet him at the airport and we had our usual breakfast at Macs. It was then he broke the news.
“She’s going up to Sepang with me.” My heart sank. “Oh, ok” I managed. I was supposed to go with you.
It was a pre-birthday trip for me but a few days ago, when he was in LA, he had told me that the trip was off because one of "the wives" (of his Evo gang) was going. I hope you understand. I told him I did. I convinced myself that it didn’t matter, that it was just one of those things that happened. But this?
“Oh and I won’t be joining you at Bala tonight. She’s on half day today, wants to take Eunice to the Zoo”. Think happy thoughts. “That’s nice.” I said.
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My day in the office was spent in a daze. To focus, I popped another phenny. Later in the night, I went to Balaclava to meet my friends. It was my pre-birthday party. No, Matt did not turn up unexpectedly to surprise me. Don't be naive.
At balaclava, I felt sick just thinking about the events of the day and my inconsequence to Matt. I vomitted after a glass of wine. Afterwards, I fixed my red eyes the best way I could and re-joined my friends. I need not to feel. When the usual sleazebags came by and made me drink, I drank up to each and every loathed toast. Soon, I felt better. At least I can sleep tonight.
“She’s going up to Sepang with me.” My heart sank. “Oh, ok” I managed. I was supposed to go with you.
It was a pre-birthday trip for me but a few days ago, when he was in LA, he had told me that the trip was off because one of "the wives" (of his Evo gang) was going. I hope you understand. I told him I did. I convinced myself that it didn’t matter, that it was just one of those things that happened. But this?
“Oh and I won’t be joining you at Bala tonight. She’s on half day today, wants to take Eunice to the Zoo”. Think happy thoughts. “That’s nice.” I said.
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My day in the office was spent in a daze. To focus, I popped another phenny. Later in the night, I went to Balaclava to meet my friends. It was my pre-birthday party. No, Matt did not turn up unexpectedly to surprise me. Don't be naive.
At balaclava, I felt sick just thinking about the events of the day and my inconsequence to Matt. I vomitted after a glass of wine. Afterwards, I fixed my red eyes the best way I could and re-joined my friends. I need not to feel. When the usual sleazebags came by and made me drink, I drank up to each and every loathed toast. Soon, I felt better. At least I can sleep tonight.
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