The Tipping Point
I’m tired of this bullshit. I don’t need to live on the scraps he throws me.
I had planned for my Spain holiday since late last year. I saved my annual leave so that I could have a nice long two week holiday just doing nada along the streets of Barcelona. Then I meet Matt. Who tells me to take a trip with him to New Zealand. I want to spend time with him so I say ok and change my travel plans. Then he tells me that the New Zealand’s trip is off and suggested going to Hong Kong instead. “To visit Samantha” he says, “I’d like to meet her.” Fine, I thought, it’s sweet that he wants to know my good friend. And anyway, I haven’t got that many days of leave left (I’ve been taking a lot of time off work just so I can spend time with him, since it’s only when his wife is at work that he can hang out in peace). So I set my heart on Hong Kong. Then he tells me that it’s off. Why, I asked. Because she asked me to go Hong Kong with HER.
I can never win, you know that?
What am I to say so that I will not immediately be labeled “not understanding”? What am I to think, when every thought I have only demolishes my self esteem? How am I to stay, when staying means I contend my insignificance and compromise to this affair of conveniences? What's wrong? Nothing.
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It’s Matt’s birthday on Sunday and I want to make it special for him. He told me “We can plan something but if she wants to celebrate for me on the same we’ll need to call it off.” Why am I doing this to myself?
I had planned for my Spain holiday since late last year. I saved my annual leave so that I could have a nice long two week holiday just doing nada along the streets of Barcelona. Then I meet Matt. Who tells me to take a trip with him to New Zealand. I want to spend time with him so I say ok and change my travel plans. Then he tells me that the New Zealand’s trip is off and suggested going to Hong Kong instead. “To visit Samantha” he says, “I’d like to meet her.” Fine, I thought, it’s sweet that he wants to know my good friend. And anyway, I haven’t got that many days of leave left (I’ve been taking a lot of time off work just so I can spend time with him, since it’s only when his wife is at work that he can hang out in peace). So I set my heart on Hong Kong. Then he tells me that it’s off. Why, I asked. Because she asked me to go Hong Kong with HER.
I can never win, you know that?
What am I to say so that I will not immediately be labeled “not understanding”? What am I to think, when every thought I have only demolishes my self esteem? How am I to stay, when staying means I contend my insignificance and compromise to this affair of conveniences? What's wrong? Nothing.
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It’s Matt’s birthday on Sunday and I want to make it special for him. He told me “We can plan something but if she wants to celebrate for me on the same we’ll need to call it off.” Why am I doing this to myself?
1 Comments:
Why is Matt so keen on meeting your friend Samantha?
You'd better keep a close eye on him if he does.
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