I Wavered

I wake up today to 7 missed calls and 2 messages from Matt. “Don’t leave, don’t do this to me.” he said. I have a sudden sense of déjà vu*. My head hurts from the drinks last night. My heart aches thinking of Matt. I know I should stand my ground and leave him like I said I would. I know that if I turn back now, I will subject myself to more hurt in the days to come. But I miss him so.

So I pick up the phone and call him back.

*About two years ago, I received the same message from somebody else. I had stood my ground and walked away. Don't ask me why.