Please Don't Judge Me

I was supposed to meet my Sis today to talk but I got scared and lied to her saying I couldn’t make it. I know, I’m just buying time. But I really don’t know how else to manage this.

I am ashamed for my loved ones to see me involved with a married man. I am afraid that having found out the situation I am in, they will want me to leave Matt. And I am scared to death, to see the look of disappointment, when I tell them “I can’t”.